Miscarriage

Having experience in miscarriage, it was a hurtful moment for me. I had been waiting for 4 years to have the baby and at the first months I had to loose it. Both me and my husband went to see 3 specialists for the help to get pregnant, the first doctor said that I had trouble with my hormone and he gave me medicine so that my period would be regular (used to be 5 times a year). Taking the medicine for a year with no luck at all, we change the physician and this time he said that I had a tumor in my womb. It was a shock for me since I never experience any stomachache during having period, unless that day, and I never heard about this symptom before. He gave me a medicine to stop my period which I did not take. I was shocked and scared but I pray to God to give me strength even if I have to face this truth. A day afterwards, I got my period (thanks God).

The friend of mine told me to go to see her doctor, Dr. Ady Rahardja, and my first impression to him is good. He checked my condition and I was fine. Again another hormone shot was given to me. Having known that everything is normal, he suggested my husband to take a test as well. The result showed no difference, we both are normal. Then.... an idea just came up, he told me to make love with a doggy style position and stayed to that position for 15 minutes after intercourse.

It works.... the next visit I was positive. We were so happy and we called our family to share the news. Nevertheless, it was three days before my departure to Egypt. The doctor suggested me not to go but I had to. My travel this time was for joint research and everything had been prepared a year before. He gave me vitamin and another medicine but he was so suspicious with my pregnancy. I could see from his eyes but he did not confirm me anything for he was not sure yet.

I spent 2 weeks in Egypt with Cane (the love name for my husband) and I had no appetite at all. It was not due to the pregnancy but due to the taste. I did not like the taste of the food and I don't really like red meat, so I mostly had dates for carbohydrate (I don't like bread either). I enjoyed the view, people, hospitality, research, anything except the food.

A day after arriving hometown, I went to see the doctor and another shocked came to me. The fetus did not grow and no heart beats could be heard. I was alone when listening to his explanation since Cane was in the office, after the visit, I cried along the way home. I blamed myself but it was useless, I had to have the abortion on the next day and all I could ask was the strength from the God. One of the possibility cause of this miscarriage was the bad quality of sperm or ovum. I do believe that God has His own plan and He will give me the best. The abortion was short and I took two days rest in bed. I just knew, someday the chance will come to me again...

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